| I've never liked the idea of New Year's
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| | down. And write it down I do.
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| Resolutions. If you make them, you feel
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| | Nothing is immune from my New Year's
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| that you are somehow accountable, and
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| | non-resolution list making, sometimes
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| what if you don't live up? Who's keeping
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| | it's an inch or two that must go, am I
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| score anyway? It could be the most
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| | getting all the exercise I need? Other
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| unrelenting taskmaster of all. On a very
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| | times it is that novel I meant to finish,
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| real level, the worst person you ever
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| | and despite making my non-resolution list
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| want to disappoint is yourself. Maybe
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| | at least every other year, it will be
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| that is why I don't like New Year's
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| | there until I'm done. Oh, and that trip I
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| Resolutions.
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| | always wanted to take! How much will I
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| Despite the fact that I don't like them
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| | have to budget to make that one excursion
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| and I invariably refuse to make them, the
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| | happen. I can't even remember the last
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| New Year is nevertheless a time to
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| | time I made it to the beach. And that
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| reflect, to think about where you've been
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| | trail I've always wanted to hike. That
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| in the past year and to set your sights
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| | old friend I've been meaning to write,
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| on where you'd like to go. This much
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| | the garden I want to plant, the new
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| self-analysis I can handle.
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| | recipe I want to cook - just because I
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| As the holiday festivities wind down, I
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| | know we'll all love it. The special
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| enjoy curling up with a nice cup of my
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| | evening I want to spend with my honey.
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| favorite coffee and spending some quality
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| | Nothing, absolutely nothing is immune
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| time with myself, thinking about what
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| | from my list making and you can count on
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| I've accomplished in the last year, and
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| | things being there for no other reason
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| also thinking about things from last
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| | than that those are things I really,
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| year's list, uh non-list, that I really
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| | really would like to do. Get the idea?
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| wish I had accomplished. What went wrong?
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| | These are the things that make my life my
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| How do I get back on the path I want?
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| | own; these are the things that make life
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| I think back over the last year and I
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| | good.
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| think hard. Sometimes, no matter how hard
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| | Likely, as not, though, I'll also include
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| you try; life really does get in the way
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| | the next exact step I need to take to
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| of itself. But you know, when I am
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| | keep my career on the path I want. And,
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| working just as hard as I can, and things
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| | down to business, keeping my finances in
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| still don't work out, I don't have to
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| | order, and my house from falling in
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| apologize to anyone, all I have to do is
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| | around me. I also try to take note of my
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| remind myself to keep trying.
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| | friends and family: are my relationships
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| Keeping in mind that old adage about try,
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| | all where they should be? Are the people
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| try again - sometimes it's not that we
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| | who depend on me happy and are their
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| need to try again, we've already been
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| | lives heading in the direction they need
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| doing that -- again and again and again.
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| | to be going? If not, what can I do to
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| Sometimes we really do need to try
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| | help, what is in my power to do and what
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| something else. That said, I do think
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| | is realistic? This is not a nosedive into
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| hard about what I need to do to keep
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| | co-dependency, this is about looking at
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| myself on course. Sometimes I need to
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| | my family and friends and trying to make
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| stay on the same old course and try it
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| | sure that I am doing my part. You know,
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| one more time and sometimes I need to try
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| | the old saw about, "It takes a whole a
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| something different. Either way, as
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| | village...." Well, it does.
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| another old saying goes, "I ain't no
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| | Just about done now, this is not a long
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| quitter."
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| | assignment, just a few moments with a
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| I'm also a dreamer and after I really
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| | nice cup of coffee, a pen and a piece of
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| look hard at the things I need to keep
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| | scratch paper. Just a little bit of
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| after, the things I need to change, the
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| | thinking, a little bit of planning -- and
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| things I need to fix, and the closets I
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| | just about done reminiscing when some
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| need to clean out, I spend some time
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| | unspent tears make their way to the
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| dreaming about the things I want to make
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| | surface. That's okay too. Because,
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| a reality. I think about those dreams.
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| | invariably, that too is part of my little
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| And most definitely, I dream those
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| | bit of time, with my favorite cup of
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| dreams.
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| | coffee, facing the New Year once again.
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| Deep down, I am a list maker, a planner
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| | Life is hard, no doubt, and I'd be lying
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| and a dreamer. And just about the time I
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| | if I said the last year hadn't been hard.
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| take the last sip on those reminisces and
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| | Nonetheless, in a lot of ways, it has
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| regrets about the old year, I fill my cup
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| | also been a good year and I have a new
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| one more time. Now, I am thinking about
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| | one to look forward to. With that, I
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| the New Year, what I want to accomplish,
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| | scribble out my last non-resolution,
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| what I need to accomplish, and what I
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| | polish off the last drop of coffee and
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| want to do, just because I want to.
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| | with bitter-sweet resolve, I am once more
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| Out comes the paper and pen. Somehow, it
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| | ready to face the New Year.
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| makes it more real when you write it
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